Starting from next week to early December, i will be expecting a lot of: acne, fat, oily scalps, puffy eyes, dandruff, sleeping at 8pm and waking up at 3am, grinding of the teeth (eww) and most importantly, STRESS.
...I can't say i'm EXCITED, but i'm really ready to accept the CHALLENGE. dun dun DUN.
Actually i am quite excited, because i actually do like writing essays and reading, but i'm just not ready for the cramming and the regretting, which i do quite often. i am the bona fide slacker. not exactly proud of it.
On another note, have you ever felt so scarred from something that happened in the past that you just can't seem to get over it? Someone hurt me a lot like 6 years ago, and i thought i was over it, but i'm starting to realize that the way i treat people and how i withdraw from friends sometimes is a defensive thing and is a result from what happened. it's not exactly the person i'm not over, I've totally forgiven this person already, we're okay now, but it is moreso the FEAR of getting hurt again, and that's what i couldn't get over. sometimes i feel bad when i seem distant from my friends because i don't mean to and i don't want to, but i'm scared that if i do put more of myself into the relationship, i just might get hurt again. as sam always says, it's "suxxors". ha ha.
1 comment:
yay for stress! i'm glad you're up for the challenge =)
in regards to the invisi-text, here's a quote from C.S. Lewis:
"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable."
it definitely suxxors to be hurt...but then conversely, by taking the risk to be hurt...you can reap exponential blessings. from experience, i'd say it's worth it =)
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