lost, like the tv show

the thought of graduating...finding a job...thinking about the future is really scaring me.

recently i've been thinking a lot about what i'm going to do after i'm done school.
ideally, i would like to do another bachelor's degree in nutritional sciences so i can be a medical anthropologist, i don't know why deep in my heart i feel a bit uncomfortable with the decision...i think it's really the uncertainty of it and what i really want to do that is bothering me.

i don't know what i want to do.

i can picture a lot of aunties and uncles going, "oh yeah, how do you get a job majoring in anthropology?"
stuff like that.
I don't know what i'm capable of. I want to do grad school but i don't think i'm academically on par.

my dad wants me to be a lawyer, he thinks i'm smart, but i'm not really that smart. i'm not. i just love what i study.

i've always wanted to be a teacher, but i feel kind of like being a teacher is in a way "settling". i always want to do something that's different. i don't want to teach in canada, i want to move overseas somewhere to do something.

but can i really let go of all my family and friends here?

i don't know.

i'm so lost.

"The LORD will work out his plans for my life--for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever. Don't abandon me, for you made me."
-psalms 138:8 (NLT)