It's been almost 3 weeks since i quit jacob, i quit because a) i wanted to focus on serving at church b) my weekends are all booked up for softball and church stuff c) manager= no good
For the last three week's i've been feeling kind of lost. Since i dropped pneumatos, i feel like i haven't done much in terms of contributing to the church. I feel as if i've totally dropped EVERYTHING or something. Last night i had a meeting with osgood, and we talked about what i need to do for VBS (i'm coordinator this year)...and while we were talking, i started to freak out.
All the responsibilities and the weight of the position started to kick in.
I am actually terribly anxious about screwing up, but yet i am SOO looking forward to it! I really look forward to doing something so big because i know I will learn a lot about organization and leading. There's also no room for screw up. I think if you push away my "easy going" side, i am actually a person who cannot admit to failure, i have a very perfectionist side too, i just give up easily. I want to get everything done the way we plan it, but sometimes i'm really lazy. Anyway, all in all, i am actually very anticipatory of VBS! God is going to continue to mould me into a more effective leader...We have lots of great ideas, great people, great kids, God will work in wonderful ways i am sure. YAY!! omg!!
Something i'm very worried though is....bling bling.
I have so little income nowadays i am like the penniless sitar player in moulin rouge.
Maybe i should perform sitar in the streets to make some money. Just kidding, i don't have a sitar.
God will provide. I really want to concentrate on serving this summer.
I want to start updating more on my blog, it helps me reflect about my days.
Nobody updates, what a pity. Psssh.
5 comments:
Gendiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! My dear! Ha ha...I feel the exact same way about pneumatos! Keep giving your best to God, and I assure you that you'd be amazed by how He uses what we think are our weaknesses and turn them into something good!
"When I came to you brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and Him cruicified. I came to you in weakness and fear, and much trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power" (1 Cor 2:1-5).
May you be strong in God's power!
GENDI!!! You will do awesome for VBS and the kids will love you!! From the short amount of time I've had to get to know you, I can already see God's love ooozing from you! I believe in you! :P
No worries about money, I'll be a poor sitar playa with you! :P God is amazing, He knows exactly what we need and when we need it, even when it comes to money, He will always provide!
GENDI!!! You will do awesome for VBS and the kids will love you!! From the short amount of time I've had to get to know you, I can already see God's love ooozing from you! I believe in you! :P
No worries about money, I'll be a poor sitar playa with you! :P God is amazing, He knows exactly what we need and when we need it, even when it comes to money, He will always provide!
ima updating :P pshhh!
come visit me in london
no wait dont... it's WAY too hot :(
lawl, the sitar...
DID YOU KNOW...
that norah jone's father is the legendary sitar player Ravi Shankar?
NOW YOU KNOW
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