i really dislike talking about school
But lately school is the only thing in my head. When i'm in the subway i think of what chapters to read when i go home, when i'm at home i think of what i should write in my essay, when i'm taking a shower i'm thinking about theories in anthorpology, when i'm taking a dump i'm thinking about how i'm going to present the next week. I'm constantly scribbling schedules and reading times and what i need to achieve by when in my school agenda. I even dreamed about handing in an essay.
When did school start consuming so much of me?
Sometimes i start wondering all the people i stopped really TALKING to, and all the times i skipped devos...
At the end of the day, all this worrying is not getting me anywhere. All i'm doing is think about all the work i have to do...i really need to get off my butt and start WORKING.
please pray for me. i feel so stupid and inadequate. i'm comparing myself to other smarter people, i feel so incompetent. UGHGUghughg. noooooo. stupid negativity. joi geen bai bye.
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Today while i was working at Jacob..i farted. Then two customers started walking towards the poisonous zone, so i started luring them away into a different route towards the shirts they were trying to walk towards. But they were apparently not captivated by my luring, and walked into my fart....i wish i saw the look on their faces, but i missed it, but i'm sure they smelled it. It smelled really crappy. Literally.
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You know, it's so easy to forget that we are alive in Christ. You have been crucified with Christ and you no longer live but Christ lives in you. The life you now live, you LIVE BY FAITH. What does that mean?
"When God looks at you, he doesn't see you; He sees Jesus. And how does he respond when he sees Jesus? He rends the heavens and vibrates the earth with the shout, 'You are my Son, whom I love, and I am very pleased with You' (Mark 1:11)" (Max Lucado - A Love Worth Giving).
God has given you a new identity, His identity, when you were crucified with Christ. You are dead to your weaknesses, you incompetencies, to your worries, your insecurities for Jesus is not weak, Jesus did not worry, Jesus was not insecure and Jesus is not incompetent. And because God has given you a new identity in Him, you also in Christ are not weak, incompetent, insecure, anxious.
God looks down on you with eyes of faith. He knows in time you will become more and more of all these characteristics of Jesus if you will let Him transform you. If God can look down on you in love, believe in you and know with certainty that you will be made in His image, you can also look at yourself with eyes of faith that you are more than a conqueror of your problems and weaknesses through Christ who loves you (Rom 8:37).
Isn't God kind to do so? "In his book you are a good thing. Be kind to yourself. God thinks you're worhty his kindness. and he's a good judge of character" (Max Lucado - A Love Worth Giving).
amen, serly!
and gendi, have heard of FLUFF, the BEST ACCOMPANIMENT TO PB?
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