am i too simple?
sometimes i think i am so worry-less and disregardful of "sad" things that i worry about being too little of it
am i suppose to be sad all the time? when i see my friends, i see them all stressed out, unhappy, worried, etc. but i feel like i'm just happy all the time.
it's not like i dont' go through depressing times, because oh lordy i do have bad days and can be the most miserable person in the world, but i guess the difference is that i focus on good things?
or maybe i just don't think "enough" to be "mature" enough to handle anything big so i just avoid them all in all?
i just feel so stupid most of the time. ugh. * *esp*s* m*s*l*

i am reminded of a sunday school lesson on ecclesiastes 7, the verse that really got to me was this:
"Sorrow is better than laughter, because a sad face is good for the heart." -Eccl.7:3
When i first heard it, i kind of cringed and wondered why, and the reason why solomon said that was because sadness reflects realities that touch on something far deeper than good times. When we only look for good times and good feelings, we can easily fall out of touch with what's important and what matters in life. Does it really come down to having something relatively big to give me a big smack on the head to remind me to get back on track?
The easiest thing in life, to do, is to avoid difficult challenges, and perhaps that is what i'm doing.
it doesn't come down to whether i'm "innocent" or "simple" or whatnot. (or maybe i am) but there must be more of me that is capable of so much more than be happy and giddy all the time... i need to become more in tune with what's more important in life.
i'm not saying that it's bad to be happy, because by all means, omg, it's great. but what i seek is a greater joy and not temporary moments that makes me roll on the floor laughing (although i really do enjoy them haha)
i hope i'm making sense, because i'm just trying to articulate my thoughts and organizing it by typing it out. it's my way of figuring things out about myself

THEREFORE

i need to:
a) pray (model sunday school answer, and is always THE right answer :D )
b) set my priorities straight
c) get back to work NOW hehe =)
d) stop LAUGHING. HAHAHA. NO..(hahaha) must. (HAHHAA) stop. j/k hahaha