relieved and thankful

I finally finished my essay. I find it very lei poh how i push myself too much sometimes...as in...doing everything till the last minute. I know everybody does that (well, many people), but the extent to which i last-minute is just..not good. It all started a month ago, when i had to hand in a paper for my religion course. The assignment was to write an essay comparing the eschatology of two passages, anyway, the requirement was to write minimum of 1800 words or something. I was freaked out so i started working on it really early...i wrote and wrote and wrote..and i ended up writing 3000 something words. I was like, "woh, i am really good at bs-ing"
So for this essay, and an essay i had to hand in last week, i left it till the very last minute, like two nights before or something, and i thought i could handle the BS..i guess i did, but i bet i'm going to get a lousy mark.
I must get rid of my pride...the pride of being able to BS...it's not even a good pride at all.

"Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall." -Prov 16:18
so true, if i keep on thinking i could "handle everything", then i'll just end up screwing myself up.

Nonetheless, i am relieved that i finished both of the major essays of my coursers, now i'm essay-free, but still haven't escaped the evil hands of exam. EXAM. Man, i feel my pride kicking in, i hear my pride telling me, "dont worry, just study the week before, you can handle it". I must start studying, must be humble. go away pride, i don't like you la.

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"I thought I did what's right, I thought I had the answers,
I thought I chose the surest road, but that road brought me here...
You know better than I, You know the way.
I've let go the need to know why,for you know better than I...
I'll take what answers you supply, 'coz you know better than I"