lately i've been spending a lot of time with myself.
I realize that isolation sometimes is really good, but too much of it is not good.
How do you balance that? At one point last year i remember talking on the phone with different friends every night, studying with people every day and when we didn't do anything there was always an itch to do something, and when we didn't do anything or didn't receieve calls i'd feel insecure. But now i am just doing everything by myself and i feel just okay, yet i'm really drawing myself away from people i love. It's like....over reliance v.s. over independence.
Anyway, this "isolation" has really gotten me thinking a lot lately.
Thinking too much perhaps...
Sometimes I can't help but think about different theories that explain the things i do, e.g. i want to buy this infomercial product- oh it must be one of the "peripheral route to persuasion" i learned in psychology. You know what i mean? And i wonder if all the behaviours and attitudes we have are confined under certain theories developed by so-and-so phD. I don't want my life to be full of theories to explain who i am and what i am, but i can't help but analyze it that way. Are we that predictable? Maybe we are.. like even what other people do..we always need to have a way to rationalize why people are the way they are. Is it a good thing? Is it a bad thing? Is it even something to consider as a good/bad thing? Are we over-analyzing? I don't know what i'm talking about.
*yawn* it's bed time
BTW, i think i found a new pet peeve of mine- BAD BREATH, is that new? I don't know, i think i've become really cheap with purchasing gum, so sometimes i might have really bad breath, but i guess i can't see the plank in my eye, haha. But yeah i cannot STAND bad breath at all, i have NO tolerance to it. I have a ZERO TOLERANCE policy to bad breath. I just want to run away and flee from nasty odor emitting out of mouth.
Someone once taught me how to "detect your own bad breath"- by licking the back of your hand and smelling your saliva. EWW eh? Usually i just breath into my hand that's curled up against my face to smell it, or sometimes my brothers just overtly says "YO your breath smells like crap" haha.
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i guess it depends if you're an introvert or an extrovert? or a mix of both? i find myself getting my "fill" mostly when i'm by myself or in a small group setting.
hhaha, at least you're applying what you're learning in school...to real-life. i do that too...whenever i eat...i think about the glycolysis pathway and how our body breaks things down and blah blah blah.
bad breath is a phobia of mine. especially when i'm around fair maidens. cause it's like...yo, that's not kosher ("Is she not talking to me cause of my breath...or did she notice that my fly was undone...). so that's why...whenever i know that i'll see fair maidens within the time frame of an hour...i chew gum. or brush my teeth. and zip my fly up.
the end.
i have to confess that when i want to check for bad breath, i pretend to yawn and sniff the air with my hand cupped over my mouth.
so now you'll know the next time you see me yawning... or maybe i'm really yawning. WHO KNOWS. WHO KNOWS.
i check my bad breath by talking really closely to people's noses. if they back away, i have my answer. but then, i realize, and then i have some fun on my own. ha. ha. ha.
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>>I don't want my life to be full of theories to explain who i am and what i am, but i can't help but analyze it that way. Are we that predictable? Maybe we are.. like even what other people do..we always need to have a way to rationalize why people are the way they are. Is it a good thing? Is it a bad thing? Is it even something to consider as a good/bad thing? Are we over-analyzing?
Short answer is: yes
Long answer is: It is neither bad nor good.
Or maybe you aren't asking for an answer. I don't like to have theories explaining every move and every thought either. It trivializes the way that I live and I feel like I'm in a bigger-than-life automatic machine. Input this and output that. Or that there is no option, no will, nothing influential.
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>>I realize that isolation sometimes is really good, but too much of it is not good. How do you balance that?
I'm sure others can happily point out the opposite, but I believe that I'm not NOT outgoing, or being not outgoing or introvert (which are not equivalents) is something to be frowned upon. I'm only outgoing when I want to. I definitely enjoy time to myself and the subsequent pockets of freedom, but that is what causes me to enjoy the time I have with others as well.
i've been more of a loner too myself. i like being home alone now... whereas before, i always had to be with someone or doing something where i could interact with someone. now, i wish there were more tranquil moments. but regardless, never forget that there are always people who will need a bit of gendi to brighten up their day! :) be my sunshine someday?
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