yo, love yourself, yo.

when people ask me "if there is ONE thing you can change about yourself, what would it be?"
there are always things i can think of that i want to change about myself...
i want to change my black-head loaded nose, be skinnier, care less about myself and more about others, write more eloquently, act more girly...i want to paint, run faster, sing and compose music...
i want to have discipline in my life.
i wish i could be more productive with time.
i wish i could give myself more to others, to my family.
i wish i could get a better and more meaningful job.
i wish i could have an undying passion for the Lord.
...etc...etc...etc....

There are so many things i'm not satisfied with about myself. So many things i want to change.
but what i always come up with is....we all have a CHOICE.
We have the freedom to CHOOSE.
How to be skinnier? Eat less, excercise more
Care more about others? Go and make that phone call, write a letter, write a note, stop thinking about whats' good for myself.
Write more eloquently? write more, read more, more practice.
Be more productive with time? Stop sitting on my big fat arss and DO something, get work DONE.
....stuff like that.

So many times we get frustrated with the WHY's...why am i so ugly? why can't i write like roald dahl? why can't i be as bold as martin luther king jr? why am i so fat? why can't i do this? why can't i do that?
We all can DO IT, if we just will ourselves to do it.
All it takes is for us to say NO to certain things and persevere in the things we hope to achieve.
The answer is SO simple.
The question is really whether we will act upon it or not.

you can choose to either dwell on all the problems you THINK you couldn't solve.
or just DO it (i am not the nike spokesperson haha). and just keep on trying. dwelling on the problem will not help anything.

...As to the 'ugly' question, i think we all go through that, i think this is just a matter of starting to appreciate yourself because God made you beautiful. Sometimes i wonder why too, but i'm starting to think about the stupidness of thinking about things you can't change. EMBRACE it and KNOW that you are all beautiful. Pluck some eyebrows if you want, buy some clothes, brush your teeth and use some nose strips.
sorry to sound shallow, but...i struggle with so many self conscious issues too...but i'm starting to realize how blessed i am and how loved i am and how much we all tend to focus on the negatives...STOP thinking that way.
please.
oh please.
hey if you feel ugly and fat please call me. i will make you feel better about yourself.
if you feel like you couldn't paint or sing, call me too.
...okay i dont know what i'm talking about anymore...

My point is, there are so many things in life to be appreciative about. The Lord put us all here for a PURPOSE. The times when we see all these nasty things about ourselves and start sobbing and drowning ourselves in sorrow is when we're being attacked. God made us all beautiful and full of potential. We need to acknowledge that first. And understand that we ALL can either choose to a)continue to feel sorry about yourself even though there's nothing to be sorry about; b)strive for more and do what you're meant to do

Next time when people ask me what do i want to change about myself, i will probably think of a whole list of things i want to change, but i will choose to say "NOTHING" because in reality, i am good the way i am.
Come on guys, you guys are all good people, i love you all so much. i even love michael jackson.