this weekend i went to mt. tremblant with my family.
it was really fun, it was only 3 days but it felt like 1000. (or more..or..less)
i'm back now. and everything is still the same..but i feel different..
it's the same feeling i had when i returned from Manitoba, i felt as if i gained so much from the two weeks, and i experienced something so different and precious, when i returned to markham, everybody, everything was no different than when i left. the pace of the "normal" life is so slow, and it rarely changes.

so i just figured, i can really choose to stay in where i am now, or continue to seek for MORE, take more risks, because at the end of the day, everything is just how i make it. I can return to where i was before, in my comfort zone, or strive for a life that's way beyond where i am now. Why should i let "the standard/ideal" way of life set me behind?

i want to be in a vacation forever.
in other words, i want to be able to experience and live my life being able to see seemingly trivial things as novel and exciting.

i want to see the Lord in everything i do, his intricate plan and the little beautiful things he puts in my everyday life that adds to it much life and brilliance. i want to appreciate all those things, to hear his soft voice, to feel his gentle hands guiding me through. it's like holidays when you notice all those things because it's a period of time when you're taken away from normalcy, so you try not to forget even the most minute of details.
i do not seek EXCITEMENT, well i do, but what i really long for is the appreciation of the little things, and to live to look forward to everyday with hope and anticipation. the last thing i want to do 20, 30 years down the road is to become a dormant, ignorant, close minded person who just wants to keep to traditions and become all routine-y.

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things i really need to work on (character-wise):
1. an unwavering faith for Him
2. humbleness
3. independence
4. my integrity
5. my heart of appreciation
6. my God-o-dar (my God radar..as in my sensitiveness to the holy spirit's promptings)