whoa...lost post....this is me blabbing endlessly

I feel so...new...and refreshed

i feel so..enlightened...long story, i guess ask me if you want to know.

but now i just feel so happy and "light" (dont take that literally)...light as in..burden-wise...(not..lbs wise..haha)

sometimes when you start to accept what you have in life, and learn to be content, you begin to see things that you've never seen before...good things...as opposed to complaining about things you can't have...which can make you bitter and stupid.

I let go of something that use to bother me a lot, and now i just feel really relieved...beyond comprehension. I never realized how much it could change me. i'm so happy. HAPPY. =) =) joy oh joy (luck club)

okay la

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*caution: the word "TWO YEARS" is uber redundant in the following paragraph

it just dawned on me how i've already been in university for TWO years...two years is...SO MUCH

and i can't believe i have friends that will be graduating NEXT year (fast trackers)...i will be done in TWO years too..(actually i'm thinking of staying in school for a little longer, just because...i'm a n**d)...but anyway. TWO MORE YEARS? it'll pass me by just like the first two years have sonically zoomed past me

i think i've matured a lot these past two years..i wonder how "mature" i will get in the next two...maybe...i'll become super old and "wised up"..haha..not like i'm THAT mature now..so yeah..okay. i will surprise everybody with my uber sensible-ness

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i'm quite grateful that i changed my mind about my major last year...i was going to major in archaeology..until i realized how i didn't love it at ALL this year. i mean, i like it, but memorizing the name of homo/australopithicus lalalalalongnamelala bones from a gazillion years ago is just not something i'd want to study for the rest of my life. However, i really love studying the more "current" prehistory, like early civilizations. It amazes me there were cultures from 1000BC who had bustling (haha i love the word "bustling") economies, advanced drainage systems, amazing technology in architecture, agricultural systems, etc...their population reached hundreds of thousands to even millions....yet....what frightens me is how such flourishing cultures could collapse so easily. Makes me wonder how fragile our world is today especially since we're depleting it's resources in such an astounding rate.

anyway, for those who know, i changed my major to "sociocultural anthropology"..long name, nothing fancy schmancy though. haha. i really like what i'm learning from this course, because i feel like it's what i've been trying to 'find' during high school..i always wanted to study culture and society and i never knew what course to take...it's not sociology..nor is it psychology...or just plainly anthrpology...but it's SCA!! (SOCIOCULTURAL ANTHROPOLOGY).(DUN DUN DUN)

when people talk about math, i'm like "oh"...when they talk about analyzing some chemical bonds, i'm like "oh"...even when people admire wine and cheese, i'm like "oh"...(like silas..."oh")

okay, my point is, when i hear about injustices in society, ethnohistories, ethnographies, different religions, cultures, etc. i'm like "OOOOOHHHH!!!!!!!!"

....yeah...

i also have a passion for nutrition...(even though i am in no way scientific)......and for teaching

what's cool is the fact that nutrition, teaching and SCA goes really well together. i could go to china to educate people on eating healthy...or become an aid worker for world vision...or something meaningful like that.

i really want to help people...my dad always tell me the importance of making money and being able to be financially stable...my brothers are all business-ish people...and i'm so...not..hahaha as long as i'm not like "darn i can't afford this $1 breakfast at ikea" i think i'll be content..

or like steph...marry and "lut see jai" or "yee sung jai" OMG haha.