Who would've thunk this healing process would be tougher than anticipated?
Here goes:
Day 1:
- woke up at 8:30am, slowy packed my bag- didn't feel i needed much, so i just brought a change of clothes
- played with ellie from 9-10:30
- Arrived at the hospital- lined up a did a bunch of administrative forms stuff, then was taken to a room where I had to change into hospital robes. I swear i thought I'd be wearing those paper dresses that shows the ass, but they have the clothy material in NYGH (Praise God). So i waited in the wait room in the hospital robe for an hour.
- A nurse called me in, my mom was there all along and walked me up to a point and she was told that she wasn't allowed in.
- I was taken to lie on a bed in a hallway. A guy came and set me up on an IV and gave me a freshly dried warm blanket. I waited for another half hour and my doctor arrived.
- By this time i was getting nervous, i was pretty calm throughout the whole morning- they wheeled me into the operation room.
- At the operation room, I was given something to breathe and then i was just KO-ed. haha.
- Next thing I knew I woke up in the "recovery room". I was so groggy and i asked "Why am i here?" and then person said something I don't remember.
- When I finally woke up- feeling extremely nauseous and groggy. I was bleeding from my nose and my mouth. I was feeling so weak.
- I just remember drifting in and out of consciousness as I was bleeding from the mouth. I couldn't open my mouth and all i tasted was blood. I used almost a whole stack of napkins. At one point I swallowed so much blood my stomach "rejected" it and i started hurling a load of blood. I had a bucket in front of me, my jaws were wired shut, so all this red gooey stuff was coming out between my teeth.
- I had to lie down on a 45 degree angle, whenever i tilted my head forward, blood spilled out of my nose and my mouth- which I couldn't stop. I had to have my bucket nearby the whole time to make sure blood does not leak onto myself.
- Only had one apple juice and a bit of water- i couldn't bear the thought of swallowing more blood into my system.
- Sleeping was ok, i was actually feeling really gross because all the blood.
Day 2
- sat in the hospital all day.
- For the first part of the morning i was still bleeding, whenever my head tilted forward just a bit, blood would spill from my mouth or my nose. unbearable.
- was woozy, did not want to get out of bed or drink anything
- tried to watch movies but my head was elsewhere, so i basically sat on my hospital bed all day without doing anything
- still swollen, very swollen, so ice packs were often changed
- had a cranberry juice and apple juice, syringe drinking was horrible.
Day 3
- DISCHARGED!
- Ice packs were removed to reveal my ever swollen face.
- it was DAYUM swollen and i was woozy as heck
- Weak as heck BUT I GOT TO GO HOME!!!
- played with my puppy but pretty much stayed in bed all day
Day 4
- forgot haha
Day 5
- swelling continues to go down but still very slowly
- i could drink HIGH CALORIE HIGH PROTEIN liquids now!
- Also i could drink without a syringe
- PLUS i stopped taking codeine so i could start pooing! (codeine makes you constipated and drowsy)
- Discovered that I could see my TEETH if i lifted my thick ass lips upwards. haha so i started brushing it with this small brush that i own because my breath just smelled so unbearable. (nonetheless it didnt' help? I mean i couldn't even brush my tongue but i guess a little bit helps, i just brush the front coz that's all i could reach)
Day 7
- Swelling continues to go down
- numbness- i feel like some feelings are coming back, i'm trying more to move my mouth around, my upper lip still completely numb, and it feels weird to wash my face it's like a skew of sensations when i do that. i feel numb but irritated. it's weird.
- Bruising- under my chin there's still a bruise spot, today i used boiled egg twice to try dissipate the bruise, but to no avail i think. haha.
- feeling very energized! did a bunch of very productive things- skipped church but took a shower (like i do all the time..psh), i got rid of some old stuff, cleaned my room, cut my dogs hair and nails, washed my dog, and listened to a great sermon (tim keller's "the prodigal son")
- i was doing some regular nose cleaning by flushing it out with water but then my right nostrils started MAD bleeding. clots were coming out but the blood was vibrant red. it just kept bleeding
Day 9
- post op appointment time!
- Dr. tocchio said my swelling is going away really well and that some people has it really bad
- honestly i've been going through this emotional thing where i feel so disgusting and weird. i am so swollen and i really feel nasty.
- he cleaned my teeth and cut off the rubberbands in the front, hallellujah i can fit a brush in there to brush my friggin tongue!!!!
- going back in a week
- told me i could do facial exercises to reduce swelling- been trying to do that and it has been working!
- swelling- my lips are not swollen anymore! my face is still swollen so now i look like a huge face with tiny little features all in the middle haha
- bought arnica cream as recommended online to help with the bruising- seems like the bruising spread all over my neck and it's all yellow, applied it twice today
- went to small group to support steph for her life story, small group saw me- much to my. . reluctance to go and be judged, but it wasn't too bad, i just joked about it lightly and it was fine
- met up with victor afterwards and he said i'll be HOT! even though he thought my swelling was funny
more posts to come!!